Sunday, August 22, 2010

Working On The Self/Risks

For the past year I've been trying to be more true to myself. It has been hard but every day that goes by has been easier. The past two weeks have experienced the most change on outlook and physical well being. I'm pretty happy about that actually. I fear though that old habits die hard. But... I'm thinking if I do have a glitch, I just need to remember how I feel in this very moment.

I rather enjoy change. I also like new experiences and meeting new people. One day I'd love to travel the world. Unfortunately, that does take some monetary start up. Plus, being female, I have to take some extra precautions when it comes to travel. This upsets me actually. I wish it weren't like that.

My life is at a crossroads and I'm still looking at the map trying to choose the best route. I'm trying to listen to my heart and listen to logic. Logic has given me a clear answer but my heart is still undecided. Perhaps this is the "crisis" of most people in their early to mid twenties face. Hell, this is probably a "crisis" that most people face sometime in their lifetime. What I'd really like to hear about is other people's crossroads and what they did about it. And if they believe it was the best choice for them. And why.

Choices contain risks and risks are what make life worth living. Without taking a chance we'll never get answers we seek. I like risks, but they are calculated risks. I've jumped out of an airplane and invested over a grand that took me forever to save in t-shirts that may or may not be sold (among other risks throughout my life). A certain amount of trust was invested in those endeavors and luckily I've at least broke even on all of them in terms of gain and loss. All the while I was fully aware of the consequences if things happened to go "wrong". So I'm not afraid to take risks. The choice is in which risk to take.

This blog post isn't funny and it jumps around a lot. I don't really care though. My brain just wanted to vomit this out.

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